First, I'd like to thank everyone for the 5,000++ views. I didn't realize. I know lots of people on dA have upwards of 50k views, but that's them, and this is me and I'm flattered my gallery has garnered even just this much attention given that I feel like I'm still in that self-discovery, skill-acquiring stage in my life. So thanks for the support, and to everyone who's helped me improve: all the people who give me constructive criticism, all the people who guide me (Carms - ), and all the people who come and shoot with me (Carms, Trin , Tsokolate ), etc. So thanks guys!

Second, if anybody's actually interested, here's where you can see more of me:

[link] (new official "public" blog)
[link] (uhm. haha. random short stuff i have to say)

Hey, guys, I just thought I'd write here and say HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HOLIDAYS! ) And take this time to THANK YOU ALL for all of your support these years. Really, thanks so much to all of you. I've learned a lot from dA and have been exposed to many an amazing artist on this site. So thank you very much. Oh and thanks for the 4,000 views! Go have yourselves some merry little Christmases.

I am spaced out all the time. Haha. All the time. All the time.
And my memory's gone to shit.
And I'm excited but nervous for stuff.
Ahhh!



Daaaazed.

I watched PS I Love You yesterday (technically).

And even though they changed the setting...
And even though it was a chick book and thus a chick FLICK...
And even though it had some differences...
And even though they took out roles...
INTEGRAL ROLES IN THE BOOK...




...THE MOVIE WORKED.

After all, you can't ask someone to incorporate every single subplot from a book into a movie, or the movie could very well never reach a conclusion.

In all the right ways it still...
...knocked the wind out of me
...drained me of any will to argue (I guess in a good way --> It was humbling).
...made me cry the entire time
and...hit me with its best shot.


I don't know how to feel now in the aftermath. It's like what she said at the end, "It's been a year and I don't feel him anymore." It's like my head hurts, and my eyes hurt from all the crying but whatcanyoudo? What can you do...? Walking forward is all I know now. It's the only way.



I should have told you when I had the chance.
I'm sorry.

PS. I love you.

I can feel your eyes on me and instead of feeling conscious, I feel comfort. Thank you.



This Christmas has been spectacular so far. I had my moments, of course, but it was a good time in general. I have such a great family, and such great friends. I'm glad for it. I got a lot of great gifts this year but by far the best gift I got is my brand new Sigma DC 18 - 200 mm lens (with the optical stabilizer feature on it). It's wide-angle, and it has a hood, and is absolutely beautiful and probably cost more than my Nikon D40 - or so my aunt keeps telling me. I am so thrilled with it. Hopefully the shots I take with it from now on will do it justice. No more using dusty old lenses or waiting for my friend to return my kit lens. I have a brand new wonderful toy. Btw, I named it Sega.